Let’s be real – I am the queen of comebacks! How many times did I put aside this blog, putting on hold all dreams and hope I had for a promising future in the fitness industry. I know – 3! This is the third time I’m sitting in front of my laptop full of motivation, trying to convince you that I’ll be the next Nicole Wilkins or Justine Munro. You know what they say, third time is a charm.
The thing is, I shouldn’t be worrying about who is reading this and who I’m convincing of whatever it is I’m trying to prove. I’m not trying to prove anything. I have to convince myself first. Throughout the past years, I needed to make sure I was ready to let fitness enter in my life. Sure, I’ve always been an active girl, but was I ready to make all the sacrifices necessary to do this? To invest time, sweat and let’s face it, money, into it? A year ago, the answer would have been no. A year ago, I was still trying to figure out which city I wanted to live in, what I wanted to do in life, struggling between nursing and personal training, thinking I could do it all. The truth is I carried way too many eggs in one basket – I dropped that basket and broke all my eggs. But eh, one’s got to break eggs to make an omelet, right? After thinking I had wasted my time moving from Montreal to Toronto, after thinking I wouldn’t be a good nurse because I was scared, I turned around and faced it all. I realized I’ve always had this “running away” mentality. I didn’t do on purpose. But it was easier to run away from my fears and pretend they didn’t exist than to face them.
A little over a year ago I moved back home. Back at mom and dad’s after 6 years of being away, it felt like a failure to move back there at 24 years old. Especially after saying over and over that I would NEVER come back to Quebec. I didn’t like who I was in my high school days when I lived there – this insecure, afraid girl, always hard on herself, binging and purging, hurting her body when she couldn’t take on more pain. An anxious girl, drinking from time to time to numb her feelings, pretending everything was alright when in reality, she hated herself. I know that everything I went through made me who I am today. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason so here I am. I got my nursing license, I now have a job which I love and where I feel like I make a difference.
Going through with my nursing license was a big deal for me as I thought I would never practice as a nurse, didn’t think it was for me. In reality, the license exam scared the living hell out of me. I hate feeling like I’m being watched and judged so imagine my feeling going from one room to another, being examined while acting like a nurse with an actor playing a patient. I use to vomit just thinking about the practical exam. I made it especially hard on myself since I decided to pass my exam a whole year after graduating, without practicing in the field and by writing the exam in French when I studied in English. Yes I’m bilingual but let me tell you, French and English medical terms aren’t always easy to interchange. Passing this exam is by far my biggest accomplishment.
With a nursing license in my pocket, a secured full-time job and more confidence, as well as a stronger relationship with my family (which was also one of the reasons I moved back to Quebec), I am now ready to fulfill my dreams of becoming a successful fitness model. I never put fitness aside as it is my biggest passion. But I watched, listened and read about it all. I come back stronger than ever, more confident and motivated to pursue my journey which I had barely started 2 years ago. Third time is a charm, I’m telling ya’!
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Thank you for reading me,
So-Fit 